Hi guys.
Sorry to get your hopes up by moderating for two days (or something close to that).
I have reasons, and I won't be back anymore after this. I don't know if I'll get this account banned, or if I'll have the willpower to just stay off of it.
Some background. I resigned from my position as moderator last Thanksgiving, due to drama and threats that I'd like to forget. I made a couple forums accounts between then and January, but let skyblock go for good around that time.
My life changed for the better. I made friends, became more confident with myself IRL, fought back my social anxiety. But with summer comes boredom, and basically I haven't done anything. Without school, I don't have a life. People who I thought liked me stopped replying to me. I lost all my self confidence once again. So I got back on here. Here I have friends, I can talk through a screen without my anxiety affecting me. I feel like I belong here, like people enjoy spending time with me, and I like helping others.
Now, in the past, I was forced to resign by my parents. What happened affected my entire family, and it was safest for me to leave this community. I came back after months of no contact to find a changed server. There are new people (and I made new friends) but best of all, the old people had changed!
Heck, one of the people that I used to despise and fear became one of my friends, and a pretty good T-Mod.

I felt hopeful that my parents would completely understand and allow me back online. I unfortunately made decisions in that direction without thinking. I saw Cyp in-game and decided "why not come back?".
I should have thought about my decision first, and talked to my parents.
So long story short, they don't believe that people can change (add that to your thread Dew lol). And they don't want me on here. I don't feel like sneaking around anymore, so I give up. No more skyblock.
So here are my main apologies that I wish to pass on to you all.

@The Moderating Team
I love all you guys so much, you're like a second family to me. Sure, it's hella dysfunctional but I seriously missed you guys when I left at first, and it's gonna hurt even more this time. My two days back were great, and I felt very accepted by you all. Keep being wonderful. (Also so sorry for the hassle of all those alt accounts, and everything like that)

CypriotMerks
Sorry for the extra work of giving me perms and taking them away two days later. I saw you in-game and thought "what the hell", made the wrong decision. I always enjoyed moderating with you in charge, you're great.

@Any Friends
Sorry for coming back, making friends with all of you again, then breaking contact. I feel like s*** for it.

And lastly, a quick warning. I'm like the mom-friend, I know.
Skyblock became more than a game for me. It became an addiction. A way for me to be social without REALLY being social. And it ended up being very unhealthy.
So just think, if you had to quit playing today for whatever reason, how hard for you would it be?
Stay safe kiddos.

 

;w; sad to see you go

 

We will all miss you dearly

 

Emma ;~; I'll miss you :c

 

:- (

 

You will be missed. ;-; Even in those two short days, you sure did alot. Thank you for that. c: Stay safe

 

I love you. :3

Good luck hun. ^.^

 

Wish you the best, Emma. Don't let that social anxiety keep you from achieving your goals; don't ever allow anything to keep you from doing so. Good luck with school

 

We should talk on kik sometime!

 

Goodbye, I know you don't know me, but you sound like a great person. Enjoy life

 

Good luck Emma. c:

Oh, and add me on kik: rachetclanks

I feel really bad for you. ;-;

 

Same goes for you. You're doing a great job as a T-Mod, don't stress and just keep doing what you're doing

I feel the same way about most of the population here. I made a lot of friends, people who I'm sure aren't "internet weirdos". It's a shame.

Same here Nova dear
You're a great friend, great T-Mod. Best of luck with everything you wish to accomplish, just know literally everybody loves you!

I'll miss you Swim. Always honest, just someone I enjoyed being around. Keep the server chill for me

Yeah, I guess I did. I really tried to jump right back into the swing of things haha.
It was great moderating with you for that short time, we're spambot buddies forever. I'll try

I fully expect you to add that to your thread somewhere.
"Emma's parents think that people online don't change"
haha
I'll miss ya Dew, best of luck to you as well

I wish I could have been here longer, I feel like we could have been good friends.
Best of luck with your goals as well, you seem like the type to do anything to get there. Keep your eyes on the prize girl!

Bye larry!

I kinda wish we had talked more. You're too sweet.

What's your username? I'll write it down somewhere and re-download kik at some point after everything has cooled down a bit. If my parents don't freak of course.
In the past week or so we actually became pretty good friends. I'll miss ya.

You're very kind. You too.

I'll keep your username around, maybe if I re-download, I'll add you. Although leaving skyblock kind of means leaving the people too ;-;
And don't feel too bad for me. It is just a game, and I got too attached if I'm honest with myself. I'll be just fine.

 

I will, just for you.

 

oh. I think you were a pretty good mod (you probably don't remember me) and I'll miss you.

Hope that sometime in the future, your parents will let you back on as a mod

 

Hey, you may be leaving but you won't be forgotten. Visiting NC one day isn't impossible, is it? Lol. Keep in touch

 

Gemma ;c

 

Haven't really gotten to know you at all, but I think you're an amazing person. Wish we could've been friends or something.
Bye, and gl

 

You were a great mod. It's a shame to see you go. ;-;