Yeah man. You stopped talkin to me like a month ago or something but every time you'd have a conversation with me I would always try to forget what happened because I actually give a s*** about you lol. What the hell even happened lmao???
I was actually being serious though. You're one of the only people I don't want to start s*** with and thats why I respect whatever you want to do. You can take it how you want, I usually dont give a s*** about people who hate me but to the ones I considered close once, I'll let that s*** go because its not worth it to start problems with people who once cared for me.
You never cared about me, you couldn't even trust me enough to be open about yourself; you were that scared about showing your true self you wouldn't even use your mic - I had to talk to you for months and months on end and just hear your f***ing dinging noise whilst I sat there talking to you like an actual human.
I hated that, it annoyed me so much that I had to leave for weeks on end to get a break from it. If you trusted me enough to even use your mic that would of shown your care for me but It was obviously all bullshit. It pisses me off shut off you are and how you don't let anyone in.
I always f***ing cared about you. Always. Every time I talk to someone about you, I'd lighten up. You were one of the only people I enjoyed talking to. I never used my mic because I was f***ing afraid you wouldn't like how I'd sound. Thats pathetic, I know. But still. I was going to start speaking on teamspeak but then you randomly left out of nowhere.
I don't care if its staff disrespect, I don't mind it.
Also if I knew you didn't liek me chatting, I would have stopped right away. I would have started to talk. I never really knew you had a problem, which might make me a terrible person but I don't pay attention to that kind of deep s*** and thats just me.
I genuinely care about you, always will. Everytime you left, I'd feel liek complete s*** because I would think its my fault. Now I know it is, and I'm sorry for that. I really am. I tried asking you whats wrong a couple times but you didn't answer so I decided to shut up because I felt you were getting annoyed.
Honestly, I trusted you, and I still do. I just don't know how to show it. If I knew, I swear I would have done all I could to show you how much I trusted you and how much I cared. I am extremely sorry I made you feel that I didn't give a f*** about you. I always did. Now I realize I just didn't know how to show it.
If a friend left, I'd let them leave. But everytime it came to you, I would do all I could to talk to you or to get your attention. You are way more than a 'random friend'. I care about you so much to the point I'm like 'wtf is that even possible', lmao. You are one of the only people I genuinely give a f*** about. Always will care about you, always will. I am actually really sorry.
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