I can't change what happened and neither can she or anybody else. After I've had a lot of time to think, I've come to understand things. Things I didn't understand previously. Things that I had a go at becky for and got mad at her for.
I know I can't change what I did, but I can at least try to change how she thinks of me. Instead of her having this horrid thought of me stuck in her head with no good memories as the horrible ones take over the good ones, I can try and make more good memories, more recent ones. Having more good memories with her will help replace the bad ones as much as it can do.
You'll Never change my perspective of what you done. Now Please stop stalking me. Before your saying your not stalking, Asking my friends for my kik, trying to contact me constantly.. Just Ive left that part of my life behind, and all those people with it. So leave me behind
I perhaps did take things too far during the arguments, but just because I come back a couple years later to try to apologise and make better memories with you to push the bad ones aside, it doesn't mean I'm stalking you. I'm simply trying to make your views on me better then they previously were. I'm hoping that the fact I'm at least trying to make things better does help towards altering your views of me
I apologise for everything that I did and said before, during the arguments. It took me some time to understand things that happened and things that I blamed you for. I struggled with everything for a while and it still traumatizes me to this day and I believe it always will.
I just feel like it would be better for both of us if we didn't have all of the negative stuff in our minds and we replaced it with better, happier memories as all we seem to remember are the bad ones over all of the many good ones.
I'm grateful for you spending your time to read these messages. Whether you're only responding with things I don't want to hear or not. I'm glad I'm at least able to express myself to you now that I've changed and I've learnt from my mistakes. When I say I've changed, trust me.. I mean it.
I've also discovered things about myself that explains quite a bit from before, when we were friends, and still effects things now and always will. I miss the times we had fun, joked around, got serious and then joked around again.
A lot of the things you done traumatized me too... thats why i dont want to talk to you again.. As when ever i do See you that traumitizes me. Hense why i just want to be left alone. Ive asked for this about 5 times so Now im just gonna block you. And NubbieBearx is actually my bf. I said he can use my name, cause He doesnt play mc and wanted to help me with this situation
I just wished you'd co-operate with me on this and try and help the trauma fade by helping try to replace the bad memories with each other with better ones.
I dont want to cooperate.. by getting you out of my life it gets rid of my memories of you completely. Ive moved on since then, I have a new fella, my depression is better. I dont even think of you until you pop up and wont bugger off
Like I dont get why i cant be left alone. I left everything behind including you cause what you done, and you've tried changing my perspective and it never changed, It just made me hate you more. So can you leave me? Alone ive asked 5 times its getting annoying as frick
Im Happy.. And tbh your the one who Fricked it up. So you now need to deal with your consequences. You'll never change what happened because it was Horrible what you done. So I dont want you near me. If you were truly trying to be cooperative you'd Understand and leave me alone
The whole situation was horrible. I can't change anything that happened. Nobody can change anything that happened in the past. People make mistakes, some big, some small.
Everybody does. I wish you'd stop focusing all of your thoughts right now on what happened and pushing me away again because of it. If you think about how I'm actually trying to contact you to try make things better for us both, you'd realise I'm not trying to cause any more harm. I'm trying to make it up to you.
I want us to be friends again. I'm not doing anything wrong to your friends nor do I intend to. We can try work our way to being friends like we used to. Just please.. give me one more chance.
TBH, You have no right in telling people to be or not be friends with anyone, Lets look at your past, you've Faked being other people to become a Moderator and try to get people to like you. TBH, Your the one who shouldn't be giving out useless comments if it doesn't really involve you, or is it just the fact that your pissed off at her for some reason and you're holding a grudge?
You should have been given another chance to talk to Becky, Even if its not a friendship, even if you two don't get along, you should have been allowed to talk to her to try and resolve, however, if you have caused her too much hassle and trouble you should definitely leave her alone and give her some space.
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End of the Day, We all should respect each other, Like i said before, we all are humans with feelings behind a Monitor, but yet again, if it was any of you's in Beckys situation, you'll expect them to stop it.
Becky, you told me that you too was faking it when we tried to remake our friendship. You couldn't help feeling like I wasn't good news. I thought that too back then, but I didn't want to give up. There was still a chance both of our feelings for each other could change, and there still is, no matter how much damage has been made. I can't change the past, nobody can.
Nobody can change the past for anything. 3 chances I've blown, 3 chances you've also been extremely rude and disrespectful too, so neither of us are innocent. Can't you see that I'm trying to make this right? I'm no threat anymore.
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