Hey, a piece of advice. You won't develop your own character by being afraid. I know how you feel, I was the same when I got promoted. The difference between your generation of staff members and mine is the people I had around me when I got promoted. I had Zambiana to help me out. He was like... A helping hand reaching from above to help me realize what my role meant and what power/responsability my rank meant. Other than that, I had Gwism, I had creekz, I had Luke and all these nice guys. Xel, Andrew, Matilda. I had everyone I could possibly wish for. These guys were a security and a family, showing me how to be a Moderator. How to be the best Moderator I could ever be. These guys are a big part of the reason to why and who I am today. As these guys vanished one after the other, I had to put my past to use. What I learnt and what I felt was right is the reason I became who I was, and still am. I never followed the book. I never followed the staff rules that were put up because I never liked them. I got so much free space to do whatever I wanted and however I wanted because of one thing. I knew what I had to do, and I did what I believed was the right thing. I was trusted to use my judgement. This quickly turned into a 'me, me me' post, but I hope you got the idea? Don't be afraid to test your ability. Develop your own moderating style. Don't bother what anyone thinks, besides what Cyp tells you. You don't have to, and quite frankly, everyone else's opinion doesn't matter. If you're in the clear from Cyp, do it.
Not seen much of you, could be because you pissed me off one time and I muted you. So yeah, haven't talked to you a lot except the time you really got on my nerves and I muted you. Ye. Amazing builder. Your builds make me twist my nips harder than bkleinman1 ever could. Tenn outta tenn. Fun to talk to and such Tenn outta tenn, again. ? Don't know much about you, except your tendency to make enemies for reasons I don't know or understand. Really short, but that's all I know.
Thanks that really meant a lot to me. I just kind of stay in the shadows now. I feel embarrassed I was demoted, sad. I don't feel the same anymore, I feel like people don't like me, or that I purposely tried to sabotage the server (which I really didn't) Maybe I'll get the courage to be that stubborn, outspoken Andrew again. But for now, I will just stay a normal, quiet player on the server.
That actually really helps. I guess it's just taking some time for me to adjust to the staff team. I mean, it has to do with the frequent demotions, promotions, or resigns. However, I've never looked at it the way you described it. I'll keep that advice. Thanks.
