You're right. The disease won't kill you. You do it.

 

Let's keep it nice on his post, guys...

On a more on-topic note, I do feel like Zambiana and Blaq should have a conversation that involve some apologizing.
^-^

 

I don't know why, but it seems like a lot of cool people are depressed. Don't let other people drag you down Zambi, no matter what.

 

I didn't really want to reply but theirs been a few good replies that I would love to address.


Listen to that while you read my reply.

I will not post what I said to the Moderators which was the reason why I was demoted, however it was obviously demote worthy and while it may only be temporary. (All up to Cypriot) I will forever be sorry to Gemma. Don't be sorry for speaking up, I praise the fact that you did comment on what I had to say, it was just said at the wrong time. Not much of an excuse to use, but I'm sure you realize what I mean.

I don't swear at people because I want to or because I want feelings to be hurt, I swear naturally. 9/10 I have to backspace swearing in my replies etc. In my Vocaroos you can hear this as in them I tried not to swear. Even then I failed, while most if not all of the staff team have learned this some haven't as much, in fact I'm sure Keeper has a full-time job following when I post and removing the swear words.

I appreciate the people trying to help me, but it's pointless because it's not like a cold where bedrest will make it go away, it's stuck deep at the roots and that's how depression is, no matter what it'll always be there. You just don't one day end up happy. You just adapt to the point that you'll always be sad, however I appreciate the gesture.

As for Swim, I'm not victimizing myself. If I was I would have blamed everyone else but myself, and I blamed myself for my actions. Nor was I blaming blaq directly, he played a part in why I ended up in the place but most of it was my fault. You cannot be comparing cancer to depression. My mum and sister both have cancer, while both caught it early so it's not fatal it's still there. In the end cancer will kill the person, with depression it will either be someone elses words or themselves. Depression is purely mental, so it's considered a mental disease.

For someone that has two mental diseases I have held up well. I have chronic depression & bipolar, both of which cause sadness, the issue is I'm sad often. Which is the main reason I don't voice chat or make videos often because I will make it depressive, I'm not a fun person. Also if I wanted to flame blaq I would have already done it.. most already know that, despite all what has happened between blaq and I, I'd never make a thread to just flame him, you guys should know me better than that.

More people die of depression than people with cancer, keep that in mind also. Cancer can take years to kill someone, depression can take a sentence.

This whole ordeal happened because I bottled everything up, out of it all I regret what I said to Gemma purely, because she has a good heart and is a very good Moderator. I could spend a year trying to make it up to her and I still feel like I'd owe her more. However, it's 100% up to Cypriot if I get Mod back or not, even though he knows I love Skyblock and I enjoy every minute I spend on it. After recent events he may not want me on the team anymore, either way I'll respect his decision.

 

Pls stay ur the reason why I made this account u are the best don't think like this don't kill ur self it's not the answer seek help pls ur getting us worried about u pls stay I'll be here for u

 

I've already forgiven you, don't worry about it anymore.

 

>.> Slightly Irrelevant to the Entirety, but, Teh original is better for this one. Nightwish doesn't do it justice for once.

Edit: Hit send too quick >.> I Still you Sean, I may not Spam like One, or hover like the Other, but Please, If you ever At All Need to just Vent when you're feeling "Not fun" Hit me up.

*PetPeeve/LindsayFanatic*

 

Nightstep is amazing.

 

To add to what I said, I have quite a few friends with mental illnesses including depression, and I understand. I really do. Don't feel guilty about anything that was said in relation to me, I get that it was a terrible time to reply. It's a honor to be called a good moderator by somebody who was such a good moderator, if that makes any sense.

 

Look up anne. Blue so alone pls I can't post due to copyright

 

Never said they isn't. But ilu Anyhow <#

 

No joke I cried, I know how it feels.

I've been through something like this and it's hard, But It gets better with time.

 

I may be inactive, still banned, and I may not have talked to you in a log while but I still have the upmost respect for you.