"trying to be the center of attention" are you going to say to everyone else who made on of these threads that? You don't understand. It's people like you who don't understand, therefore thinking you know that people are only depressed, cut etc etc for attenton. That is complete and utter sh*t. So you're saying that you don't believe that I've been going through tough sh*t? You can believe what you want, but I can tell you now that it is true, hand on heart.
Stating something ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- this thread was not intended to get attention, sympathy, start arguments or whatever your other reason is. It was intended, and created, to let you know.
Thank-you matt for sharing this. I can relate to a lot. This is not attention seeking, it is matts right to share a part of his life if he so chooses. I hope that everything works out ok, I know its tough and there are a a lot of people who understand. Unfortunately due to the fights breaking out, this is getting ruined. A lot of members here, ones you would never expect as going through tough times, emotional issues and just say the word, I will clean this thread up of all the arguments
Feel sad my long-ol' general life advice thing is 'missed' since it's kinda half buried between fighting... sad moments.
Matt, I too went through this (For a very long time...I know exactly how you feel & I'm sure there's a lot of us out there that understand each other in this aspect.) & thank you for sharing this with us...depressions really are terrible during it - it gives you all kinds of thoughts. But when you think about the bright sides in your life & go through it in the end, it really does seem like nothing - especially the suicide attempts...don't ever go over to that side. W2henevr you feel depressed, think about all those that care for you & you care for. Remember - we're always here with & for you. I know you're strong enough to get through these...I believe in you buddy.
Firstly, I said I was sorry, I guess no one read it, and I can't go on every thread and post it. "It's people like you" Mmhm. Well, it's "people like me" who went through what you are (Without cutting themselves), but instead, I had no one like you did, I had no one to tell, I had to face that sh*t alone, and it made me who I am today, and last night, I found the error of my ways and I'm sorry, I guess I just felt jealous that I did not have friends, anyone really to talk too, people to support me, no one was there. So I'm sorry. Truly, and it will never happen again.
What I don't understand is that you knew it would offend people, yet you said it anyway? Stating some things: I am not an emo, or goth I am not a psycopath you telling me to kill myself doesn't help the matter I am not after attention or sympathy This thread was made because I felt that it was time I explained it to you all Moving on, I just want you to know that what you said before actually really upset me :c
I know, I knew it would offend you. Listen, when someone is bullied, he starts to become the bully, and I never thought that, that would be me. I used to be sensitive, respectful, and have principles. Now, after what I've gone through, it changed me, made me mad. My sensitivity changed to anger. So if that answers your question...
I want to prove to Him that I can hold it. I'm trying. But I can't. My parents talked about me getting confirmed the other day, I don 't know becuase if I do and self harm, I will feel 3x as bad
Confirmation, to me, means that you truly believe and means that you're not being forced onto the religion. It's a dedication. I got this gold cross by my god father on my confirmation day, and I don't remember the last time I took it off. It means a lot to me, and that's how I know that letting myself get confirmed was the right thing. The rest doesn't mean as much to me. It's my religion and I interpret it the way I want to. So should you.
All of us here have gone through the same emotional phase that you are going through, (Maybe not at bad, but still.) You have to remember that life has it's ups and downs, and maybe your at a down now, but you can always still climb to the top. Remember you can always turn to a friend, (Don't even try to say you don't have friends, do you know how many people care about you here?) or God.
I don't understand why you posted so much graphic information about you physically harming yourself, I don't really see how it was needed or that anyone on this forum site needed to hear about it. I also don't know why so many people feel the need to openly express themselves in this way on a forum with the majority of users being under-aged children trying to enjoy a minecraft server. In my opinion I think you should be in a hospital, cutting yourself is stupid. I've been there, and no matter how f***ed up life may become I would never go down that path again. You will get through what you're going through, teenage years are probably your most difficult, but you will. How would you feel telling your future children or future lovers that you used to cut your skin because it made you feel better? Would you advise your own children or friends to cut themselves if the going got hard? Life will always get better if you want it to, it's your attitude and your outlook on life that makes all of the difference. A lot of people don't believe that life will get better, but those people don't realize how great they have it. Of course everyone could have it better, but it could be so much worse and you shouldn't take anything in your life for granted. Maybe you should talk to an adult in your life, you know like a parent? You can express your feelings to your online friends, but really all they can do is listen and give you advice that they'd probably never taken from themselves in a million years. You need professional help and you should probably seek it.
Ok, let me respond to why I said those things. 1. All suicidal kids I've met are emo/goth peeps so I assumed, because again, I was heartless. 2. I called you a psychopath because I thought "who cuts themselve for joy?" 3. I told you to kill yourself, because, would you rather live in pain, or die with joy? Because you cutting yourself is torture. You have 3 options, Stop all of this, Keep torturing yourself, or kill yourself, I suggest you pick "Stop all this" 4. Yes, I understand that now. 5. Ok, and sorry for making everything seem so harsh, all the responding statements above are just responding to what my motives where to making a point. Sorry, and my motives have changed.
