Tell me what scares you the most. I'll start. Being alone in the catwalks of my school's theater scares me the most.
Losing who is dearest to me, the dark, the inevitable thing in life which is death, utter failure, rejection of family or friends, not being accepted in life, not being good enough, that life won't end up the way I want it to, being replaced, being alone, actually falling in love for good, imperfection, large amounts of blood, of one day losing happiness, disease, being in an enclosed space alone, hight, moths, trees in scary places, going insane, a fear of childbirth (and I want blood-related children, once I do have children), growing up, losing important memories, being disliked, to flaff up, being badly injured, anything sharp. I am afraid.
Failure. I fear it more than death itself, because it could mean torture along the way. With death I am gone into nothingness, and I can finally get the answer to the age old question of what happens after you die. I don't mind it, sure I really don't want to die but I have no choice in the end. With failure its an experience of not being good enough, and in addition the consequences of that come varying depending on the situation. One bad thought I have is that I will screw up and end up homeless, and from there be screwed period. A bit absurd to be thinking but its still there in the back of my mind.
