Denied hot_tub1 appeal (9 months already)

Hi, Its been a very long while, and let me just start off by saying, its been a very crazy long while, and a lot of stuff has happened in this time period, now, to start off, I am going to paste the template and start there.

• Punished account name: hot_tub1
• Platform or server punished on: survival skyblock and possibly economy server too And I am almost positive the discord too.
• Ban message if applicable: Multiple repeat offenses ( Indefinetely )
• Have you read the rules? As per usual, I have indeed read the rules multiple times, and recently again as to make sure I am updated, since I have been inactive for a period of roughly 9 months.
• Do you think this punishment was incorrect? Honestly/Realistically speaking, No, however the circumstances have since changed since my time on this server.
• Why should you be unbanned? Well, As it stands, I was quite the troublemaker on the server, I would often do things that went against the rules for fun, to incite a reaction from people, I would troll people for fun, and say homophobic things in the chat occasionally, and in general, being snarky and a smart donkey. During this 9 month absence, a lot of major things happened, some of these things I am not comfortable sharing with openly to the general public, but if any staff member would like to know, I would be willing to share, as these private matters will show and explain a lot of my behavior, although I am still to blame, I feel as If I have matured enough to the point to finally realize right from wrong. I am finally responsible enough to be more independent, and as such, I have to be mindful of other people, I started working in the food industry a few months ago, and it really taught me to be respectful and have manners, both of these were things that I did not have almost a year ago, and as I have undergone many new experiences, I learn how I was wrong to view things the way I did. I would like to have the opportunity to explain myself in a more private manner to the staff that work on ban appeals. I have learned many new things, and I have learned to accept everyone after discovering somethings about myself as a person. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and sorry for the bad grammar that might be used or run on sentences.
• Please list any other times you were punished on Skyblock: I do not even know how many times to be completely honest.
• If you know, tag the staff member that banned you: Kerahna
• Do you understand and accept our rules and code of conduct? Yes, after rereading them yes.

I would like to add the fact that I feel like a more in depth explanation is required, however I would rather the general public not know, as this is something I would rather the actual staff know first hand, due to the nature of context, and I would also like to formally apologize to the staff member that I harassed moments before getting permanently banned.

 

Hi, Just wondering if an update will be needed, It has been 21 days at this point in time. Thanks.

 

Mfw I see 24 views. No worries I learned more about patience, which is a skill I worked on a lot.

 

This has now been posted over a month ago, will I ever receive an update?

 

Well, at this point, my chances are looking slim at getting allowed into this community again, I understand a permanent ban shows that this community no longer wants said person here, but boy oh boy does it hurt, just seeing time go by, realizing I can not hold on to the feelings and memories that I used to have playing on this server, after time, I know it will stop feeling this bad, I just hope that I get one more chance, I know this is in no means guaranteed, but I want to show how I have changed as a person, for the better. I want to re join this community once again, I know I was quite the trouble maker, and looking back, I was a terrible little monster, but I do realize how much pain I have made, how my actions have affected others on this server, after realizing how I made people feel, I myself look back on my younger self with slight disgust. I want to treat everyone with respect, and while I will be ok if the administrative team does not want me here on this server anymore, I would still like one more chance to prove myself, a single last chance of redemption. I do not need any more chances, for this will be the last chance, I want to further improve myself each day, and I still hold optimism that this will eventually make its way to the right people. thank you. I understand that pinging the head of staff and the owner wont do much, but just to make sure I am heard.
Kerahna
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